An idea came to me yesterday to start a fitness blog. A year ago I would have never dreamed of saying those words. A year ago I was the heaviest I had been in my life. Then a friend sent a text that changed my life. I want this blog to be a way for me to document my fitness journey and if there’s a chance it can help others along the way then that’s a bonus.
A little background on me. I grew up in a small town in IL, the youngest of 3 kids. I was a super shy kid. I was famous for looking at the ground when talking to people. Confidence is something I have always struggled with. I have never liked how I looked. I was horribly ridiculed and bullied in jr high school. In order to deal with all of that, I began to just not care. I ate my feelings. In my mind I thought why bother trying to look good. It was easier to hide under the weight then deal with the bullying and stand up for myself. Deep down – I grew to believe I didn’t deserve to be happy. In my mind I thought I’m ugly and nothing will change that so I might as well enjoy something and that was food.
As I got older, I continued the same pattern. Instead of dealing with the issues I was experiencing or feeling, I just became more introverted. I continued to use food as a way to temporarily feel better. But it only really made me worse – it just took me awhile to realize it.
In early 2018, I got a text from a dear friend asking if I wanted to sign up for a gym challenge with her. I thought about it and decided what did I have to lose. Little did I know that my whole life was about to change…
Over the next few weeks I’ll continue my story and lessons I’ve learned along the way. Below is a picture of me from 2012 (it might explain why I’ve been asked 3 times in my life when my baby was due when I’ve never been pregnant – note to everyone: never ask a woman how far along she is )
YOU ARE ENOUGH TODAY. YOU WERE ENOUGH YESTERDAY. YOU WILL BE ENOUGH TOMORROW.
Confessions of a Fitness Convert 